Phone service shut down while the Verizon guy allegedly works on it.
I'm writing on Word, my Word for Mac thing, and it's unfamiliar to me.
(Tangent: I keep wanting to get my thesis paper thing from where I
saved it as a file to my gmail, so I can edit out names et cetera and
send it to Dan so he can put it up on his site with my PowerPoints and
I can bore you-all further and hopefully get in an argument with Mike,
but although I am able to get the file downloaded from my gmail, I am
unable to get the thing any further than my desktop. And I can't edit
from my desktop. And it makes me crazy that I can't figure out how to
get the thing to open up in my Mac Word program, why I can get it
merely to "Read Only," and the whole thing is making me mad blah blah
blah.)
Anyway, I've been here five years and the phone lines have been effed up the whole time. Is it me? Is it Verizon? Id-effing-k!
My nearly two year-old modem still works, even though it shuts itself off every quarter hour or so, or loses its connection or, I don't know, just decides that it hates me. I bought a new modem, it wouldn't hold its dsl connection, the Verizon guy said it was a defective modem and so I sent it back. They sent me a second modem; same issue. The guy just told me that they must have sent me a SECOND defective modem and I find this very hard to believe.
Eh. Boring, right? But my classes start on the 25th and I need freaking Internet.
In other news, my stomach hurts.
In further news, I am glum. I don't know why. Without the outlet of classes, I'm just thinking too much. And not, you understand, GOOD thoughts.
See, I get in this mode where I question everything I do, think, everything about myself. Hiking, something I enjoy on various levels, I'm all questioning my motivation. I'm all, 'Am I doing this for my heath? Because without any health insurance I have to take better care of myself? Or am I doing it so that I will lose weight and look better? Because I am trying to conform to some false societal standard of pretty and I am basing my self-worth upon my appearance? '
And then I get all mad at myself. Because I'd like to think I'm exercising solely for my mental and physical health but I suspect that I am doing it so that I will look better. And that makes me really, really not like myself. Because shouldn't I be better than this? This superficial crap? Have I tried so hard to get smarter and tougher, only to find that I still want to be fucking pretty? Because that's messed up.
I wanted to change and I worry that I haven't changed at all.
My stomach hurts. I'm thinking I'll try to drink some herbal tea stuff. It's drizzling rain outside and I have to wait for the Verizon guy to return... I guess I should try to get a head start on my textbooks... but I guess I'll just watch TV...
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Update: 3 hours later I still have a new modem that won't work, an old modem that only semi works, the desktop can't get ANY connection through its ethernet cable, and he Verizon guy says, "Let's just see what happens."
Kill me.
Anyway, I've been here five years and the phone lines have been effed up the whole time. Is it me? Is it Verizon? Id-effing-k!
My nearly two year-old modem still works, even though it shuts itself off every quarter hour or so, or loses its connection or, I don't know, just decides that it hates me. I bought a new modem, it wouldn't hold its dsl connection, the Verizon guy said it was a defective modem and so I sent it back. They sent me a second modem; same issue. The guy just told me that they must have sent me a SECOND defective modem and I find this very hard to believe.
Eh. Boring, right? But my classes start on the 25th and I need freaking Internet.
In other news, my stomach hurts.
In further news, I am glum. I don't know why. Without the outlet of classes, I'm just thinking too much. And not, you understand, GOOD thoughts.
See, I get in this mode where I question everything I do, think, everything about myself. Hiking, something I enjoy on various levels, I'm all questioning my motivation. I'm all, 'Am I doing this for my heath? Because without any health insurance I have to take better care of myself? Or am I doing it so that I will lose weight and look better? Because I am trying to conform to some false societal standard of pretty and I am basing my self-worth upon my appearance? '
And then I get all mad at myself. Because I'd like to think I'm exercising solely for my mental and physical health but I suspect that I am doing it so that I will look better. And that makes me really, really not like myself. Because shouldn't I be better than this? This superficial crap? Have I tried so hard to get smarter and tougher, only to find that I still want to be fucking pretty? Because that's messed up.
I wanted to change and I worry that I haven't changed at all.
My stomach hurts. I'm thinking I'll try to drink some herbal tea stuff. It's drizzling rain outside and I have to wait for the Verizon guy to return... I guess I should try to get a head start on my textbooks... but I guess I'll just watch TV...
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Update: 3 hours later I still have a new modem that won't work, an old modem that only semi works, the desktop can't get ANY connection through its ethernet cable, and he Verizon guy says, "Let's just see what happens."
Kill me.
It's okay to want to look good. People judge you by
your appearance, so you are obligated to use it to
your advantage.
You know, you can host the powerpoints or essays in
exactly the same way that you hosted the .mov files
that you posted.
So kill me with you. It must be late at night because this is just funny! I'm coming back- you better write something more! OK. First. If you open up a file and it only gives you "read only" option crap- go to "Save AS" and save the damn thing under a new name. Then you should have full use of your file. I don't know why. I just know how to hack it.
Second- what's your thesis on? I'm working on chapters 1-5 and I'm tired of it! Master's degree. I'm done with my classes though. Good luck.