It's too hot. I've been trying to save money, keeping the thermostat at 87 and even then the a.c. is running constantly. I'm going to see if I can get through the summer with no a.c. in my room, never installing the window unit. See if I can do it. It's just too hot. We've already reached the point of not needing to even turn the hot water on a little bit in the shower. If you've ever lived in a place like this, you know that when it's hot, the water comes out warm, tepid, and you don't need to use add any warm water. I tell myself I'm saving on propane.
I want this to be my last summer in Texas. I want this so much. But as I was watering the birds/goats this morning it occurred to me that maybe I'm just indulging in a giant fantasy. Indulging in it and dragging my kids along, too. Maybe we'll never get out of here and I should just accept it. Try to make the best of it. Try to find some good in this place, these people. Because maybe I'm fooling myself, thinking Eugene would be any better; maybe Eugene would be just the same as Texas. Maybe it's just me being the problem. Maybe I'm wrong and everyone around me is right and I refuse to see that.
I'm depressed and it's too hot and I need to do some Soci thing on William Sheldon and his somatotypes; I better go.
I want this to be my last summer in Texas. I want this so much. But as I was watering the birds/goats this morning it occurred to me that maybe I'm just indulging in a giant fantasy. Indulging in it and dragging my kids along, too. Maybe we'll never get out of here and I should just accept it. Try to make the best of it. Try to find some good in this place, these people. Because maybe I'm fooling myself, thinking Eugene would be any better; maybe Eugene would be just the same as Texas. Maybe it's just me being the problem. Maybe I'm wrong and everyone around me is right and I refuse to see that.
I'm depressed and it's too hot and I need to do some Soci thing on William Sheldon and his somatotypes; I better go.
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